Hey little brother! I picked up the phone to forward you a funny meme and then quickly stopped myself. I found myself trying to call you on Christmas and again on New Years. I have to remind myself that no one will answer. It's crazy cause I still cry almost everyday on my ride home from work and try to hide it. But you already know that. Thanks for watching over me and the family. One day I know I'll stop crying, then we could share some laughter. In the meantime, I just picture you with the hissing laugh telling me to stop being a b!tch. Honestly, it keeps me going everyday. Talk to you tomorrow and I will see you when the time is right. I love you little brother.